Saturday, September 11, 2010

Feeling Down

I have not been up to par with my diet and exercise lately. I don't know why all of a sudden I'm eating a little whacky again. I'm still going by the rules of the times of food for the most part, but the things I've chosen to eat are not that great. I haven't even done some serious exercise since some time last week. I don't feel discouraged.. I just feel like the motivation is not there now. I want to be motivated. I try to be motivated, but it's like the brain is not getting the message. I'm going to try and read some of my previous posts and go to some websites that are motivating and just read them over and over. Maybe that will help me? I'm a little scared, too. What if I keep up these unhealthy behaviors, and gain all my weight back, and get really discouraged, and so on and so on? That will just anger me soooo much. I can't do that. I won't do that. I don't want to have to start all over again, when this has been a huge effort in itself...

Ughhhh.. this is harder than I thought. Today I am trying to think in a better mind set. I have eaten a protein bar for breakfast this morning to get me going for the day. I didn't even weigh when I got up today. What a slacker I am being..

My plan for lunch is the Burrito Bowl thing that I was talking about before. I have the chicken marinating in some Mojo Criollo sauce, I have leftover rice and guacamole that I made last night. I have corn on the cob too, and a can of black beans that I can open.. oh and some fresh tomato salsa and romaine lettuce that I bought. I will make this into a fabolous burrito bowl.. Well, at least, that's the plan. I might even take a pic of it and post it here.

I shouldn't need anything to eat in the afternoon. I will be going out with Charlie so that should distract me from wanting to eat anything. We're going to a party at Chuck-E-Cheese's tonight, so that's when I'll eat. I'm not sure what we will eat, but I am going to try to keep the portions at a reasonable size, whatever it may be.

Oh and I forgot to mention.. the school I'm going to be going to in October (Stratford University) gives free membership to Chinn's Fitness & Aquatics Center for their students. This means I actually get access to a gym, and can do some working out besides walking... kind of exciting! So, I'll probably start going there once a week or so when I get my I.D. card. (It's kind of far, or I'd go more often).

Anyways, I need some luck and motivation so that this day will be a good one. More later!

Thursday, September 9, 2010

Update 09/08/10

Afternoon snack: pack of Pepper Jack crackers, ritz crackers with cream cheese
Pre-Dinner: left over kid's bean burrito, rice
Late Dinner: Frozen personal pizza, handi-snacks, 2 oreos.

The reason for the crappy eating is because I had to go to Stratford University to get a tour and pick classes, so I didn't get home until almost 10:00 pm. I didn't need the handi snack or oreos, but once I get started eating at night, it's hard to stop.

I have a new idea that I'm going to start doing hopefully on Monday. I want to start making my own version of a burrito bowl! I'm thinking of grilling some chicken breasts and using rice, black beans, guacamole, fresh salsa, a little cheese, maybe corn, and a lot of lettuce and eating that for lunch. The chicken, beans, and cheese are protein. The guacamole is a healthy source of fat. The tomato salsa is good in Vitamin A, C, and K, Riboflavin, and who knows what else. The rice is a carb.. but I have to eat some carbs. The corn is a vegetable and carb as well. Also, the lettuce is practically a free-food. I'm thinking that if I eat this at lunch time, it will fill me up for the rest of the day, and it seems pretty healthy as well. As long as I don't use too much rice, I think it will be a great lunch.

Wednesday, September 8, 2010


For lunch I had a tuna fish sandwich, an applesauce, like 14 wheat thin sticks, and 3 teaspoon-fulls of candy corn. Then I did a 1.19 mile walk, burning about 110 calories. I'm ready for a nap!!!

Update from yesterday

I had no morning snack yesterday, partly because I had poptarts for breakfast, and partly because I was busy and had no time. We went to Panera for lunch and I had all intentions of getting the Fuji Apple Chicken Salad, but I got weak and ordered the same old You-Pick-2 with the Frontega Chicken Panini and Broccoli Cheddar Soup.. Pure deliciousness. Then I didn't eat anything until 5:30 ish and that was a few Pepper Jack crackers (I think 4). Then Fredy and I were going to dinner at Chevy's, but I ate a few spaghetti noodles and squash before that.

At Chevy's, I ate some chips and salsa, and then I ordered the Grande Chimichanga with Chicken.. I hadn't eaten it in sooo long. It also comes with rice, refried beans, sour cream, guacamole, pico de gallo, a little lettuce, and a tamalito. I ate half the beans, a couple bites of rice, and slowly ate the rest of my food. My slowness was thanks to Charlie (thank you, Charlie) because he didn't want to cooperate with me and sit in his highchair. But I'm ok with that. Then after I ate Charlie decided to run around the restaurant. He must've known that mommy wanted to burn some calories after that deadly meal.

This morning I haven't eaten yet, but I'm getting ready to. I'm going to have a bagel with some light cream cheese and maybe a banana.

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Holiday Weekend

The holiday weekend was pretty nice. I didn't have to work Saturday or Monday so I got some R & R. I didn't pay too much attention to my food. But, I ate like 2 meals a day, and like no snacks (aside from icecream on 2 occasions). I went to a few restaurants, cooked a little, ate some leftovers, and so it was a variety of things that I ate. Overall, I don't think I did too bad. I actually weighed myself yesterday morning. I was like 247.6 lbs.

Today I didn't have time to weigh myself, and I was super tired too. I ate a package of s'mores poptarts for breakfast and some whole milk. That wasn't well planned..

Probably looking at Tuna for lunch.. or maybe Panera.. hmm.. I'll let you know though.